الله كبير...

مهما يصير

انتظريني وضلك صلي

الله كبير

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فيروز

FYI..

Owen: I’m trying to love you. Why won’t you let me?

Cristina: Burke was a- He took something from me. He took little pieces of me, little pieces over time, so small I didn’t notice, you know? He wanted me to be something I wasn’t, and I made myself into what he wanted. One day I was me.. Cristina Yang, and then suddenly I was lying for him, and jeopardizing my career, and agreeing to be married and wearing a ring, and being a bride. Until I was standing there.. in a wedding dress with no eyebrows, and I wasn’t Cristina Yang anymore. And even then, I would’ve married him! I would have!! I lost myself for a long time. And now.. that I’m finally me again... I can’t!! I love you... I love you more than I loved Burke. I Love YOU!! And that scares the crap out of me, because when you asked me to ignore Teddy’s page, you took a piece of me, and I let you... And that will never happen again!

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Owen: Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't... I didn't know you were here.

Cristina: No. Wait, wait. I... love... you!

Owen: I love you too..

Cristina: No! Just... I.. LOVE... you! I said... I said "I love you"! Me, Cristina Yang.. ! You traumatized me.

Owen: You know that I'm so sorry about that!

Cristina: Damn it! No, not about the choking! It's like you come here, and you pull our my icicle, and you make me love you, and I can't... I don't want to. I can't breathe... without you.

Owen: You can do this Cristina. We can do this. All you have to do is just meet me half way. All you have to do is say yes. All you have to do is say.. YES!

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Two different scenes from Grey's Anatomy

Pic. is from the movie, Cairo Time

ومستحيل يا حزن راح تسكن...

شكلني بطعم الافراح

لوني بلون التفاح

وبطعم المانجا وكمانجة

تعزف لي ع الجرح ارتاح

يمكن!ه

مشيني على كفوف الراح

نسيني لو حلم وراح

واشمعنى المعنى بيعرفني لو باتت في قلوبنا جراح!!ا

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منير

(A note on the journey of Self-Recovery: Seize each feeling of revelation and every step forward ... you still may fall down again and go few steps backwards, but, for sure, you will be ahead towards the door of regaining yourself! Every small step counts. Rejoice it when it comes, and let it go!)

!كرمالي..نيناتنا منعرف شو صار

Dear Little Flower that has withered,

You've lost your petals, if you didn't notice. You're all alone out there, in a burnt down meadow! It's a desert.. vast desert now, and you just lie there motionless. Can't you see the rainbow has left, the skies are all foggy and are no longer blue, even the green has escaped!!Colours are gone, and you just stay there.... all alone! The earth beneath you is all cracked and dry that promises no life. It doesn't rain anymore...and everything else just died! You're so pale, lost your green leaves... just a stem left , and a bud..and few withered petals still hanging on to you. The roots have been plucked, one after the other... however, your last remains still cause much disruption in the soul. Every storm has taken a part of you and left for good.. Every wind shook harshly your standing stem... why are you still there then?!!

Dear Little Flower that has withered, please decay.. you have already died if you didn't notice.

Die...let your ashes be swept away... carried far, far away by the wind... and I promise you, then...you'll be resurrected.

yours,

Me!

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Title : from Fayrouz's song "Eh fi aml"

A Melody...

*scene & melody from Cairo Time*

Survival..

They say lightning never strikes twice, but that is a myth. It doesn't happen often, lightening usually gets it right the first time. When you're hit with 30,000 amps of electricity .. you feel it. It can make you forget who you are. It can burn you, blind you, stop your heart.. and cause massive internal injuries. But, for something that happens in only a millisecond, it can change your life forever.

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Lightning doesn't often strike twice. It's a once in a lifetime thing. Even if it feels like the shock is coming over and over again. Eventually, the pain will go away.. the shock will wear off. And you start to heal yourself. To recover from something you never saw coming. But, sometimes the odds are in your favor. If you're in just the right place at just the right time.. you can take a helluva hit...And still have a shot at surviving.

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Grey's Anatomy

A.S.A.P.

The Things 'am dying for in the very short coming days, weeks, or ..Ok.. Months!!:

1- To Know (I'd pay my life for a glimpse at a crystal ball!)

2- To Decide (and to trust my judgement, senses, and mind!)

3- To have Fayrouz's new album (I want her kind of HOPE!).

4- 2010 to freaking end (if possible, make it end NOW!).

5- To have a clear vision (I wanna SEE!)

6- To dare and learn driving b2a (It's SCARY! It's still SCARY!)

7- To study HARDER (Clock is counting!!).

8- To be on good terms with the few things that did hurt me before (Like Ali El 7aggar!).

9- To fully regain Belief (Magic will still exist!).

10- To be ME (and accept it).

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(Pleaaaaaaaaase, Can I have those soon b2a?!)