That too..

Then...You can't sleep...
You're a lill child who has those shivers..and wanna someone to breathe with..to calm down..
and
then
sleep!
Everything terrfies you!
And
You
trust
no one!
No one..of those who are in control of everything!
You're
scared
of
them
the
most!
You stop living...
You're on pause..
On halt!
Stopped!
Chocked!
Killed!
Lonely......................
.............
And you're quite scared!
Your shivers...pain you!
Antidepressants ..
You
are
Lost!
Blank!
Scared!
Dwelled with shivers and fears...fears and shivers...and helplessness!

How living is such an unbearable process!!
_____
p.s. Does death pain that much?