Saturday, April 14, 2012

This Kind of Pain..

They say..in order to be healed and fully recovered, you have to accept yourself as it is. Embrace it and accept, don't be your own enemy.

You know when some kind of severe burn happens to the skin? The skin is burnt and the flesh is exposed, making any little contact onto the burnt part..a living hell! You can never touch that part it hurts..even if a little bit of cold water, it's gonna hurt no matter what.

I feel..as if all of me is exposed like that, as all my soul without its protective skin, everything hurts even a little gesture, or a small word..all hurt like hell...all cause bleeding..the minutest thing as tiny as an unseen dust..pains all of me. As if all of me is nothing but tips of nerves exposed that any poke gonna make me scream like hell of pain!

How can I hug my soul then and pat its back and tell her it's gonna be fine, while I cannot even get any closer! How can I hold unto myself while even my mere existence will pain..How can I get close, whereas every inch is nothing but burnt bless aching..

How can I then survive like that then...

2 comments:

Angie said...

i used to put my actions,, thoughts,, and concepts on a sensitive balance to evaluate it from time to time ,, w akeed my actions always take very low marks and fail in my own exam ..

in the very beginning i took z decision to be my own judge but at z end i turned out to be my own enemy as u said ...

btw u r not alone ,, most of us have exposed sensitive nerve endings ,, burnt flesh ,, exhausted fragile eyes ...

Anonymous said...

ألا بذكر الله تطمئن القلوب