Thursday, April 21, 2011

Randomly..



How does the' zolam' work? Simple...it submerges you with blankness, dries up your tears..but you feel there existence within, makes you lie down...with that chest pain and hard to breathe..and low blood pressure..to feel the heaviness of your head! It chases the mind..but, doesn't kill it! It can never conquer my mind..still!

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Broken Hearted

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Is that my destiny, Lord? Should I stop here?

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I signed all copies...Both rejecting and accepting...All I need now is to decide which to put forward!

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Everything conquers me... despite all my trials! Everything defeats me!

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أنا اسفة يا رب

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Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones..and I will try to fix!

But when????

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You have suffered enough..and warred with yourself..It's time you've won!

Is that even possible?

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All I want..is to skip the survival phase. All what I've doing all my life was to survive! To survive this..to survive that! To stumble and survive! To fail and survive! To fall and survive! I do not wanna spend my life surviving..I just wanna start living...start breathing properly..start having stability for a change!
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Please, Please..help me, God! Please!


5 comments:

Anonymous said...

that is life, my dear

الا بذكر الله تطمئن القلوب

Anonymous said...

what's wrong??!!!! i dun have to stalk you everywhere to get to talk to you! you'd better call me or i'll haunt you down and chop off your head!
Azza

نــهـــــــال said...

i stopped following blogs for a year..
last time i saw ur posts they were balloon-ish , colorful, touching, warm...
and i hope that, in reading others thoughts, writing about beauty and pain equally unbiased, and appreciating miracles that u become better soon..
and, draw on a balloon with marker , lots of wishes and let it fly mel shebbak.. who knows maybe an angel will catch!

Rosa said...

Firstly, I miss you a lot. Secondly I want to know why is all of this sadness.

be confident in Allah Sweetie and belive deep in your heart that every thing will get fine soon.

please get better soon.

يا مراكبي said...

إن مع العُسر يُسراً

مع مش بعد

هتهون إن شاء الله