What about me...?

Please!

Please do this for me, ok?

Please?

Ok?

I can't do this if you don't!

Please do this for me, 'cause if you don't do this..

Please?

. . . .

اكتب عن

فيروز وكآبتها

الشرود

سدة النفس

الانهزام

البرد

العتمة

واكرر لنفسي

"*مهياش لمونة وعصرناها ورمينا القشر"

"مهياش لمونة وعصرناها ورمينا القشر"

"مهياش لمونة وعصرناها ورمينا القشر"

.

.

امسح كل ما كتبت

.

.

"*هج الحمام .. بقيت إلى حالي..إلى حالي"

.

.

ويفضل الانهزام

والبرد

والعتمة

والشرود

.

.

يخربيت الوجع

والبرد

.

.

هي..لمونة وعصرناها...وح نرمي القشر

________

لفؤاد حداد

وحدهن بيبقوا لفيروز

كدهوه....

...

On Taking the Risk..

A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success." Never leave that till tomorrow," he said, "which you can do today." This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.

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From Grey's Anatomy

pic. from: Cairo Times

فعل المقاومة اليومي...

اليوم بيخلص وانت متفرفت 100 حتة! كلك متكسر ومتبعتر حواليك...تنام وتصحى عشان تلصم نفسك من تاني..تحارب لاجل ما النهار يجي..يمكن فعلا يرضى ويجي...بس ألف من يكسر فيك.. وألف من يهزمك...متلازمة الاحباط والوجع تاكل في روحك وتقتل فيك..لحد ما تتفرفت من تاني ع المخدة قبل تاني يوم!ا

يا رب..لصمني

Temptation...

And Snow White whispered from her glass coffin..."Sleeping is very tempting!"

Exclusive...

Then..

You lose control..

and

nothing in your hands..

and

you wait...!

and ..you're asked to be patient...

You have to be patient....while watching how you're being slayed!

Sit still..

watch...

be numb

don't cry...

keep your eyes rolling...

watch..

see how the big knife is going through your neck..slowly

very slowly

each day..

each moment

each hour...

Watch your own self killed...Live!!

That's Exclusive!

.....!!

بالظبط زيها

______

Phase (1): Shock & Denial!

That too..

Then...You can't sleep...
You're a lill child who has those shivers..and wanna someone to breathe with..to calm down..
and
then
sleep!
Everything terrfies you!
And
You
trust
no one!
No one..of those who are in control of everything!
You're
scared
of
them
the
most!
You stop living...
You're on pause..
On halt!
Stopped!
Chocked!
Killed!
Lonely......................
.............
And you're quite scared!
Your shivers...pain you!
Antidepressants ..
You
are
Lost!
Blank!
Scared!
Dwelled with shivers and fears...fears and shivers...and helplessness!

How living is such an unbearable process!!
_____
p.s. Does death pain that much?

الله كبير

تذكر شو كنت تقلي؟

مهما يصير

انتظريني وضلك صلي

الله كبير

..

من يومها شو عاد صار

عا مدى كذا نهار

ما صار شي كتير

كل اللي صار وبعده بيصير

الله كبير

..

ذاكر قدي قلتلي..ها العمر انه قصير؟

وانه انا مافي متلي...وحبي أخير؟

..

من يومها شو عاد صار

عا مدى كذا نهار

ما صار شي كتير

كل اللي صار وبعده بيصير

الله كبير

عايشين الدنيا على عيبها...

ضاقت فلما استحكمت حلقاتها فرجت

وكنت أظنها لا تفرج

...

لكن أذكركم..فقط تذكروا

قد كان هذا كله من قبل واجتزنا به

لا شئ من هذا يخيف ولا مفاجأة هنالك

يا (طفلتي) ارتبكي قليلا، إنه أمر طبيعي

وقومي

إنه امر طبيعي كذلك

...

إن مع العُسر يُسرًا

إن مع العُسر يُسرًا

__________

العنوان..من أغنية "مالناش غير بعض" لوجيه عزيز

Fatal...

It feels like being killed...
Such heaviness...drowning you!
It feels like waiting for a death sentence..
Or..
A miraculous moment..to come
Someone to cry out: Innocent...and that's gonna save you..
It
just
needs
someone
to
step
up
!
But that can no longer be me!
The Crossroads...The Choice...The Courage...The Decision.....
________________
Dear Lord, It's in Your Hands now...!

p.s. Did I ever mention how I hate the mechanisms of the world and life ...making you out of control?

One of those days...

نايمة...زعلانة...أوي

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The only hope is that it may end by sleep, and sun of tomorrow shall bear some Sunshine for refreshing the soul...